The muse possesses me like a demoness

he was one of those writers whose
bio said something like
'It is not my choice. The muse possesses me
like a demoness and I write
because not to do so would mean to have
my soul tortured by a thousand
bites and scratches
of her fiery fangs and gelid claws.
The only way to delay her devouring my soul
is to put the next word down. And I
strive to do just that. My destiny is therefore
set in stone. I am a writer.'

he was also an amateur photographer
and filmmaker
Currently exploring the niche of
torture porn

He was 34
and still lived with his parents
who apparently didn't understand
his artistic side
and were constantly trying to crush his
dreams into oblivion
with ridiculous, outworldly demands
like
'When will you get a real job and move out?'

He pitied them
Pitied the blindness of their souls
the deafness to real art
and the artistic nature that oozed from his
very being

It was like they
had Jesus Christ in the flesh in their
house but would not
understand or care to acknowledge it

Poor souls

Anyway
his latest project got him in a bit of trouble
with the law

Something to do with
a seventeen-year-old staring in one of his
experimental movies

and now he knew he had it all
figured out
Just like the Messiah,
he had to die, had to suffer to no end
so that the blind herds could
come to know his truth and understand his
art

He denied his parents
when they tried to hire him a lawyer

They did not
insist
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I’m a writer

perched on top of his
desk
the doctor looked
down at him
as a teacher would
at a failing student

"Say," began the doctor, "are
you even trying to
stay alive? Or do you seek the
quickest death possible that
can't be labeled as
downright suicide?
You smoke all brands of cigars
and add up to three and
a half packs a day
and drink random alcohols you
can pick up and keep at it
until there's no more in
the bottle.
Your liver is done for.
The lungs beg for death with
each tentative of breath. Veins are
as rigid as rusty pipes.
You don't even have feeling left
in the skin.
So what's your big idea, pall?"

Despite all his
shortcomings in the health
department
his eyes were as limpid
and innocent as
a newborn's

He pointed them at the
doctor's and said, "Oh, I have
many big ideas, doc.
Thing is, they're only big in my head.
Once they come out
and others see them... Well, they
just aren't so big no more.
Average at best.
And that's what I do all day.
I get those big ideas out
of my head and try to
show them to others."

The doctor took off his
glasses. Watched him in a new
light. "Buddy... did you not
understand the question?"

He sighed. "Doc, I think you didn't
understand the answer.
So let me spell it out for you
in your own language."
He cleared his throat. "I'm
a writer."

The doctor put his
glasses back on. "Ooooh, now
I get it.
Hah, why didn't you say so
from the start?"

"That's the problem with us,
doc. We never
like to admit it
up front.
Only the young and those who
actually made it will
say it up front."

"Ooook, in this case... Well, I guess
there's nothing I can do
for you, nor is there
anything that has
to be done.
For a writer, you're perfectly
healthy."

"I know, I know. I just
wanted to see if I could
get some morphine..."
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snow-white hair and coal-black eyebrows

she lived alone and didn’t do much around
the house

Ate TV dinners all day
and drank
and complained that she couldn’t sleep
at night

Had a pretty nasty case of
insomnia

What can you expect from a girl with
snow-white hair
and coal-black eyebrows?
some had said

Obviously they weren’t referring to
her insomnia
but her other mental issues
like being bipolar and depressed and
other such things

You could try to sleep with her and
the sex would be quick
and then you’d have to spend the rest of the
night listening to her
talk about recycling being actually
harmful for the environment

«Seriously,» she’d say. «People need to understand that
the stuff just gets shipped overseas
to third world countries
where it’s burned or dissolved in chemicals to
extract precious metals from it. That’s
how it works. And it’s harmful
for nature, harmful for everything and
everyone. People have no
awareness. They’re all so
damn selfish, it’s ridiculous.»

The last guy who fell asleep during
her speech
had his foreskin folded and
stapled shut

«Hit me!» she urged him. «Choke me
or fuck me up
but don’t you dare
ignore me again!»

Somehow she
never ran out of boyfriends
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boulder turning game

if you grew up
in the
countryside
you know the game

You find the biggest
boulder
you can turn over
and you turn it over
and discover
an entire world underneath

pale
alien plants
and critters, maggots,
worms, mice
or even small reptiles

I loved that
game

Kept playing it
until I no longer liked
what I discovered
under the boulders

It was dead

and it was just rotten
fur and bone and teeth

Fragile like burnt
paper
in the wind

A kitten

and no answer to the
question «why?»

They just told me, «An’ what
would you have fed it?
Your guts?
Go play somewhere else.»

I did
for what else could
I have done?

besides crying

Since then
I no longer play the boulder
turning game

or any other game

I’m afraid life will find
a way to
suck the fun out
of it again
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not your dog

it was her dog that had to be
put down
not his
He only saw the good boy for the past
two weeks or so

Yet it was him who couldn’t
get it up
in bed because thoughts of the
departed good boy wouldn’t
let go of
his mind

“I’m sorry,” he told her, hands
covering his face
in shame. “I just can’t.
I... I feel we should dedicate this day
to mourning, you know?”

“What?”

“Babe, you know how much I love
dogs. The death of
one... It, it just kills me, you know?”

She looked around for
her panties. “Well, babe, I start to think
you love ‘em dogs more than
you love me, really.”

“Wah? How can you...?”

“Well, I mean, if you didn’t
you’d want to comfort me in this time
of need. It’s what I want, what
I need to cope with the loss. But you’re
not thinking about that, are you? No,
all you’re thinking about is
the dog. It wasn’t even
your dog. You didn’t grow up
with it, damn you!”

They hugged each other and
cried on each other’s shoulder. Cried for
the rest of the night

A few days later
she came into the bedroom wearing
a furry dog-themed outfit
with ears and all
Same color as the one who had been put down

He got it up, alright
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scavenging time

under
the bent lamppost
he stands and watches
as the local grocery
store closes down for
the day

The clerks come out with
big trash bags
and close the doors
and lock them
and abandon the trash bags
by the trash cans without bothering
to throw them inside
and just leave

Yeah, it’s scavenging time
again

The thing that makes
him smile
these days

And it’s still infinitely
more than
others have
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big ant farm (published in LatinosUSA —English edition)

not a religious boy
but that evening he felt like praying
though didn’t precisely know
what for

Forgiveness maybe?

Anyway, like the good boy he was
he waited for her
with dinner ready and even
a bottle of cold white wine
he took from
the fridge
and buried in a pot of ice cubes

He waited in silence
swimming in his own thoughts

drowning a little

She opened the door at 11 PM
and entered carrying
two large bags and asked if she had
been missed or not

He was too good
to say anything other than “Absolutely.”
and that made her smile

She embraced him
gave him a kiss and put her lips
next to his ear
and whispered, “I can’t wait to show
you what I’ve got.”

But of course he already
knew damn well what she got

So after dinner they went straight into
the bedroom
taking their clothes off along
the stairs
and once inside she stretched him
on the bed
and told him to wait for her just a bit

He was a good boy
and so he did

In front of the bed there was no TV set
Instead there was a giant tank
that held an ant farm
Pretty big ants. He could sometimes hear
them knocking against the glass, waking him
from sleep

He watched the tank in horror until
she returned to the bedroom
with what she brought today from the
pet shop

Surprise, yet another hamster
whose only meaning in life was to be
thrown into the tank with the killer
ants while she watched its
desperate struggle and eventual dismemberment
as she got pounded from behind on the bed
and shouted obscenities

But after this one
her lover finally knew what to pray for
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catfishing

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The first picture she showed me on her
phone made me think
something stupid

It was a naked lady
but you could see her only from the
neck down

She was quick to see my dumb smile
and said, “No, you idiot! That’s not me!”

“I never said it was,” I said. “But who
is it then?”

Now it was her turn to
stretch a smirk. “My boss’s wife.”

“What?”

“Yeah. This lady here is my boss’s wife.
36 years old. Your average,
stereotypical frustrated housewife. She’s
looking to hook up.”

“What?”

“Heh, you didn’t catch up to it,
didn’t you?”

“Catch up to what?”

She closed her eyes
and slapped her forehead. “Uh, you
slowpoke! I’m catfishing my boss’s wife.
Don’t you get it?
I’ve made a fake hot guy account and started
sexting with her. Made her send
me nudes an’ stuff.”

“Shit,” I said. “Hold on, was I supposed to
understand all that just from
you showing me her pic? C’mon…”

She rolled her eyes. “Whatever.”

“But seriously, why do
you do
something like that?”

“Cuz I fucking hate the guy, if
it wasn’t obvious enough. I want
him to
suffer
big time.”

Well, damn, just when you think you
know someone. I always
thought she
was a good Christian girl

Also, if I remember correctly,
she was working in a family business…

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At the point where nothing in this world brings or even hints to excitement anymore

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the third can of beer
empties

and she throws it
away

leans back into the
chair
and breathes a few times

reaches down between
her legs and starts
rubbing

and nothing

She’s finally there. At the point
where nothing in this
world brings or even
hints to excitement anymore

Where does
one go from that point?

What are the options?

It’s been four
days and nights already
and she’s still
thinking

hasn’t moved
from that chair once

Well, she’s definitely not
the worst muse
I’ve dealt with

just one of
them

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worms in the gut

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You could smell him
from the entrance. Always the same. He’d enter,
wearing the same faded jeans
and brown shirt
pass by the tables
salute and shake hands with those he knew,
usually the whole place

pull out a bill from his
back pocket
Put it into one of the slot machines
Choose a simple game with fruit symbols
and activate the autoplay feature
then look for a drinking buddy

He rarely picked me
but that evening he did

Sat down across from me and lit
a cigarette
and went on talking

“I’m pretty damn positive,” he said.
“There’s worms in my
gut.”

“How d’ you know?” I asked

He grabbed his shirt and
stretched it
away from his chest. “Look at me. I’m
scrawny as a putrid toothpick. But my
gut stays round and swollen. Plus, I’m always
hungry even after I eat. Even
after I drink
beer. Stomach feels ever empty,
ever grinding
on naked gears. It’s hell, man.
Seriously, don’t
get married.”

“What?”

“What?”

“What was that about marriage? I thought
you were telling me about
your gut worms.”

Nodding, he grabbed a paper
napkin and
wiped at a beer stain on
the front
of his shirt. “Marriage is like gut worms, alright.
It consumes you
from the inside and eats away
more than half of everything you try
to invest in yourself. Also,
you can’t possibly get rid of it without causing
serious damage to your body. And
dignity.”

“Oh. Um, are you married?” I looked at his
fingers. Saw no ring. Only
a lot of dirt rimming his cracked nails

He watched the
slot machine
on autoplay as he replied, “I was engaged, yes.
Healthiest times of my life. My love
introduced me to
one of those blender machines. We put
in carrots and apples, pears,
prunes, oranges, and a lot of ginger. Now
that shit was healthy. But
you see, a healthy lifestyle only works
if you’re healthy to begin with. It doesn’t
work with people like me. I prefer
investing the money
into the fruits of slot machines, not
blender machines.
My love, she didn’t like that. It’s…
probably what determined
her to add bugs to my smoothies.”

“Damn, what kind of bugs?”

“Eh, you know, all that can be found in
one’s garden. Grasshoppers,
ants, cockroaches, butterflies, centipedes,
ladybugs, snails, spiders, rat shit. The usual.”

“And you drank them every time? How
long did it
take you to figure out what
she did?”

He shrugged. “Eight years? Ten?”

“I see. And, did you have any big wins
at the slot machines in those
years?”

He shifted on his chair to reach
with his hand and scratch
his ass before answering. “Well, nah. But
I definitely will tonight. Just
watch.”

We watched the slot machine
going on autoplay
Watched it like a very entertaining show
on TV
There was something to it,
something almost magical. It wasn’t so
much in the slot machine itself
as it was in
the eye of the gambler. You could tell
he was the type of man
to get drunk and then mug you for
gambling money
and you’d hate him for it only as much
as you’d hate the rain for getting your clothes
wet or the bee for stinging you

He was a natural element of
the town’s ecosystem

I still miss
the bastard

Unlike the creditors who came after
him a couple of
nights later

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