“I was ten years old,” she said, her head resting on my shoulder. “And the flames covered the damn sky. Though our neighbor was actually lucky. Lucky I didn’t burn his house. I mean, motherfucker had it coming. You don’t run over a girl’s puppy and expect to get out scratch free, you know?” “I too had a neighbor who ran over my puppy with his tractor,” I said. “I think I was also around ten.” “And what did you do about it?” she asked “Nothing,” I said “What? But how?” “Like I said, I was just some insignificant kid from the countryside. All I could do was cry.” “My God,” she said, “that’s so fucking lame. Where’s that neighbor of yours today?” “I’ve no idea. Perhaps he’s dead. He was pretty old when it all happened.” “If that’s the case then you have the duty to go piss on his grave. At least.” “Um… I wouldn’t know where that is. And besides, I learned to forgive.” “That’s what the weak say. What kind of man are you?” “One who doesn’t hold grudges?” She sighed. “We gotta spend more time together.” “And learn from one another?” I asked She didn’t reply
no matter how fragile the light, it still beats the darkness
By Bogdan Dragos This morning too it jumped on his bed and cried and pounced on his face and licked his forehead Now he had a reason to wake up To feed the cat And he had a reason to take showers Because the cat didn’t like to lick a greasy face He had a […]
no matter how fragile the light, it still beats the darkness
smiling back at the clouds
at least the clouds are smiling back they have faces and souls and they stare back from their blue canvas, down on his dirty, snot-smeared face It’s a warm sunny day but the bottom of the shallow, dry well is cold and full of critters Well, no problem. The sky is so pretty with all its smiling faces that he won’t even cry. He’ll stay there and look up. Still waiting for mother to return and pick him up Still waiting Smiling back at the clouds Still waiting
kitten in the shoe By Bogdan Dragos

the room was cold and there were gray flowers of dampness blooming all over the walls He took off his shoes and the shoes were the warmest things in the room so the kitten climbed into one of them He sat on the mattress in the corner and petted the cat in the shoe He smiled and said to the kitten, "At least I have no debts." Even God agreed with him. He winked through the hole in the ceiling
the last notebook
he takes his old wrinkled notebook and the black pen and finds a spot from which he can observe the people and write down what he imagines to be their inner conversations It passes the time and it takes away attention from his own inner conversations It’s like a prescription drug he has to take for the rest of his life and the twenty-nine bookshelves filled with notebooks he has at home stand as proof of that But this will be the last one, he promises himself as he closes the notebook and walks up to the bridge
APATHY by Bogdan Dragos

She came from work pretty early and I knew when I saw her that she quit yet again She changed four jobs in the last five months and got a tattoo that said APATHY on her lower back Her father died five months ago. He died of what's called almost-drunk-driving He was sipping on a beer bottle while driving fairly slow on a country road But the front wheels hit some log or something and the impact triggered the airbag It bloomed in his face and stabbed the beer bottle into his eye causing him a major trauma to the brain R.I.P old man. Maybe not your wife but your daughter sure will miss you She's coming from work dirty and ragged Approaches me and demands a cigarette I give her a small lighter and she tells me to go fuck myself "Well you're done with work early today," I…
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around the smokey hole
You can still be good at what you do without liking what you do It’s more common than you’d imagine The words reflected his face in the steamy bathroom mirror He watched until he felt cold in his nakedness and shivered reached for the towel wiped got out of the bathroom put on clothes and returned to his writing desk The blank page was ugly unlike the somewhat encouraging words on the steamy mirror He reached into the drawer pulled out the pen stuck it into his mouth clicked it Reached again into the drawer pulled out the gun pointed it at the blank page fired He wrote for the remainder of the day and the next night around the smokey hole It was finally beautiful
a blunt weapon
There was a time when he’d fear nothing more than the bluntness of the empty bottle his torment his nightmare, his hell The bottle would be all right as long as it stayed full It was like Lucifer before the fall Oh, but once it emptied then it would change completely Then he’d see father’s grip reverse on its neck and turn it into a blunt weapon that delivered its fair share of bruises and scabs on the scalp It never broke like in the movies but it surely hit harder than wood But in the end after all those years of standing in its greenish shadow he found himself thanking the bottle It’s simple What you don’t pick up you don’t end up holding He never touched a beer in his life and certainly didn’t use the bottle as a blunt weapon against anybody not even against his own father as revenge The cleaver was far more effective
The Boy Who Ate Flowers by Bogdan Dragos
He ate flowers. this mentally challenged boy from the countryside I used to watch him in the fields when I visited my grandparents as a kid He was like an exotic thing a wild beast chasing static pray They had no chance, the flowers he would assault them with a killer’s smile, frothing, and […]
to choose the bottle
there are many reasons a woman can say her final goodbye to you and somehow they all feel different He supposed the worst of all had to be when her final goodbye is influenced by another man made sense but that wasn't his case Also he was too drunk to think straight now. And in too much pain “It's the final goodbye,” she had said. “You chose the bottle over me, now live with the bottle. Goodbye.” Goddammit, this really hurt His dick was only getting harder and more blue stuck in the mouth of the bottle Yet still, through all the pain and the dizziness he reached for the phone and called her. He said, “Hey, I just want you to know that… It was you I had in mind when I did it. I did it while thinking of you, love.” She hung up
