"I was raised in a strict Christian home," he said as he poured another glass of whiskey. "That's why I turned atheist right after I left to be on my own."
"At 18?" I asked
"Nope. At 24."
I liked the guy. He was somewhere in his late fifties looking forward to pensioning
worked as janitor in an office building
and the reason they all called him crazy was that he swore he saw someone in the women's bathroom right after closing time as he went to clean
A female figure standing by the mirror
she must've been real, he said, because her presence activated the sensor lights in the room
It was a story I've heard dozens of times
And I don't care how real it is
I believe him because I want to
I want the story to be real
Had he not had a story like that to share we wouldn't have been friends today
"Wanna hear my advice?" I asked him. And without him saying anything I went on. "Don't quit. This job... is perfect. Trust me."
He'd fall asleep and the darkness that fell around him would manifest as one being that would hold him tight in her embrace and bite at random from his flesh and tear until there'd be nothing left but pure pain
Darkness was the world
And the world was dark because he had labeled it such
Darkness...
Enlightenment then comes when one is able to emerge from the darkness, to leave it behind, to win over it
Or so it is thought
But those who are truly enlightened know better, don't they?
You cannot possibly win a fight
It's just not how it works
Your decision to fight the darkness or anything else is your decision to fight yourself and yourself alone
Thus you lose even if you win
So then how do you truly win in life?
Well, have you ever thought about not fighting in the first place?
To fight with the world, be it the real world or the world of your dreams, is to fight with yourself
Stop hitting yourself in the face!
And maybe start embracing yourself?
Do so with the world
And what do you think?
Will you not find that the world replies with the exact same treatment?
I believe that's what he did in his dream world too The next time the world turned into pure darkness and came to eat him he just offered himself to it instead of trying to run away, hide and fight back