I’m a writer

perched on top of his
desk
the doctor looked
down at him
as a teacher would
at a failing student

"Say," began the doctor, "are
you even trying to
stay alive? Or do you seek the
quickest death possible that
can't be labeled as
downright suicide?
You smoke all brands of cigars
and add up to three and
a half packs a day
and drink random alcohols you
can pick up and keep at it
until there's no more in
the bottle.
Your liver is done for.
The lungs beg for death with
each tentative of breath. Veins are
as rigid as rusty pipes.
You don't even have feeling left
in the skin.
So what's your big idea, pall?"

Despite all his
shortcomings in the health
department
his eyes were as limpid
and innocent as
a newborn's

He pointed them at the
doctor's and said, "Oh, I have
many big ideas, doc.
Thing is, they're only big in my head.
Once they come out
and others see them... Well, they
just aren't so big no more.
Average at best.
And that's what I do all day.
I get those big ideas out
of my head and try to
show them to others."

The doctor took off his
glasses. Watched him in a new
light. "Buddy... did you not
understand the question?"

He sighed. "Doc, I think you didn't
understand the answer.
So let me spell it out for you
in your own language."
He cleared his throat. "I'm
a writer."

The doctor put his
glasses back on. "Ooooh, now
I get it.
Hah, why didn't you say so
from the start?"

"That's the problem with us,
doc. We never
like to admit it
up front.
Only the young and those who
actually made it will
say it up front."

"Ooook, in this case... Well, I guess
there's nothing I can do
for you, nor is there
anything that has
to be done.
For a writer, you're perfectly
healthy."

"I know, I know. I just
wanted to see if I could
get some morphine..."
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Zâmbindu-le norilor (smiling back at the clouds)

at least the clouds are
smiling back

they have faces and
souls
and they stare back from their
blue canvas,
down on his dirty, snot-smeared face

It’s a warm
sunny day
but the
bottom of the shallow, dry well
is cold and full
of critters

Well, no problem. The sky is so
pretty with all its smiling
faces that he
won’t even cry. He’ll stay there
and look up. Still waiting
for mother to return and
pick him up

Still waiting

Smiling back at the clouds

Still waiting
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snow-white hair and coal-black eyebrows

she lived alone and didn’t do much around
the house

Ate TV dinners all day
and drank
and complained that she couldn’t sleep
at night

Had a pretty nasty case of
insomnia

What can you expect from a girl with
snow-white hair
and coal-black eyebrows?
some had said

Obviously they weren’t referring to
her insomnia
but her other mental issues
like being bipolar and depressed and
other such things

You could try to sleep with her and
the sex would be quick
and then you’d have to spend the rest of the
night listening to her
talk about recycling being actually
harmful for the environment

«Seriously,» she’d say. «People need to understand that
the stuff just gets shipped overseas
to third world countries
where it’s burned or dissolved in chemicals to
extract precious metals from it. That’s
how it works. And it’s harmful
for nature, harmful for everything and
everyone. People have no
awareness. They’re all so
damn selfish, it’s ridiculous.»

The last guy who fell asleep during
her speech
had his foreskin folded and
stapled shut

«Hit me!» she urged him. «Choke me
or fuck me up
but don’t you dare
ignore me again!»

Somehow she
never ran out of boyfriends
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boulder turning game

if you grew up
in the
countryside
you know the game

You find the biggest
boulder
you can turn over
and you turn it over
and discover
an entire world underneath

pale
alien plants
and critters, maggots,
worms, mice
or even small reptiles

I loved that
game

Kept playing it
until I no longer liked
what I discovered
under the boulders

It was dead

and it was just rotten
fur and bone and teeth

Fragile like burnt
paper
in the wind

A kitten

and no answer to the
question «why?»

They just told me, «An’ what
would you have fed it?
Your guts?
Go play somewhere else.»

I did
for what else could
I have done?

besides crying

Since then
I no longer play the boulder
turning game

or any other game

I’m afraid life will find
a way to
suck the fun out
of it again
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not your dog

it was her dog that had to be
put down
not his
He only saw the good boy for the past
two weeks or so

Yet it was him who couldn’t
get it up
in bed because thoughts of the
departed good boy wouldn’t
let go of
his mind

“I’m sorry,” he told her, hands
covering his face
in shame. “I just can’t.
I... I feel we should dedicate this day
to mourning, you know?”

“What?”

“Babe, you know how much I love
dogs. The death of
one... It, it just kills me, you know?”

She looked around for
her panties. “Well, babe, I start to think
you love ‘em dogs more than
you love me, really.”

“Wah? How can you...?”

“Well, I mean, if you didn’t
you’d want to comfort me in this time
of need. It’s what I want, what
I need to cope with the loss. But you’re
not thinking about that, are you? No,
all you’re thinking about is
the dog. It wasn’t even
your dog. You didn’t grow up
with it, damn you!”

They hugged each other and
cried on each other’s shoulder. Cried for
the rest of the night

A few days later
she came into the bedroom wearing
a furry dog-themed outfit
with ears and all
Same color as the one who had been put down

He got it up, alright
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scavenging time

under
the bent lamppost
he stands and watches
as the local grocery
store closes down for
the day

The clerks come out with
big trash bags
and close the doors
and lock them
and abandon the trash bags
by the trash cans without bothering
to throw them inside
and just leave

Yeah, it’s scavenging time
again

The thing that makes
him smile
these days

And it’s still infinitely
more than
others have
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big ant farm (published in LatinosUSA —English edition)

not a religious boy
but that evening he felt like praying
though didn’t precisely know
what for

Forgiveness maybe?

Anyway, like the good boy he was
he waited for her
with dinner ready and even
a bottle of cold white wine
he took from
the fridge
and buried in a pot of ice cubes

He waited in silence
swimming in his own thoughts

drowning a little

She opened the door at 11 PM
and entered carrying
two large bags and asked if she had
been missed or not

He was too good
to say anything other than “Absolutely.”
and that made her smile

She embraced him
gave him a kiss and put her lips
next to his ear
and whispered, “I can’t wait to show
you what I’ve got.”

But of course he already
knew damn well what she got

So after dinner they went straight into
the bedroom
taking their clothes off along
the stairs
and once inside she stretched him
on the bed
and told him to wait for her just a bit

He was a good boy
and so he did

In front of the bed there was no TV set
Instead there was a giant tank
that held an ant farm
Pretty big ants. He could sometimes hear
them knocking against the glass, waking him
from sleep

He watched the tank in horror until
she returned to the bedroom
with what she brought today from the
pet shop

Surprise, yet another hamster
whose only meaning in life was to be
thrown into the tank with the killer
ants while she watched its
desperate struggle and eventual dismemberment
as she got pounded from behind on the bed
and shouted obscenities

But after this one
her lover finally knew what to pray for
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Pisicile sunt audiența perfectă pentru poezii (cats are a great audience for poetry readings)

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the cat was utterly
uninterested
and downright
bored

with him reading
mediocre poems
by her side

"You don't like this one?" he asked
"It's about nature
and birds
flying and... and... How good does
it have to be for you
to like it? I'm only ten, I haven't
lived long enough to
write poems of grief
and depravity like my father. But you
know, I'm actually aiming to become
better than him. I aim to be
a more
respected poet. What, you don't think
I'll be able to?
You think I'm just another
deluded fool? I'll show you!"

The cat stood
and stretched raising her tail
"Calm down, kid. First of all,
your daddy was no
poet. Just some drunk who spoke of
demons as he passed out
in bars. And you, you're not ten, okay?
You're just ten days
clean of meds."

"You think I should
end myself?" he asked

The cat waved a paw
at that. "Nah, just go on with the
next poem. I'll be listening
but please don't expect any
praise. It's not in my nature to
offer it, okay?"

"But... you think I'll be a great
poet one day?"

The cat closed her
eyes and offered no reply
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catfishing

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The first picture she showed me on her
phone made me think
something stupid

It was a naked lady
but you could see her only from the
neck down

She was quick to see my dumb smile
and said, “No, you idiot! That’s not me!”

“I never said it was,” I said. “But who
is it then?”

Now it was her turn to
stretch a smirk. “My boss’s wife.”

“What?”

“Yeah. This lady here is my boss’s wife.
36 years old. Your average,
stereotypical frustrated housewife. She’s
looking to hook up.”

“What?”

“Heh, you didn’t catch up to it,
didn’t you?”

“Catch up to what?”

She closed her eyes
and slapped her forehead. “Uh, you
slowpoke! I’m catfishing my boss’s wife.
Don’t you get it?
I’ve made a fake hot guy account and started
sexting with her. Made her send
me nudes an’ stuff.”

“Shit,” I said. “Hold on, was I supposed to
understand all that just from
you showing me her pic? C’mon…”

She rolled her eyes. “Whatever.”

“But seriously, why do
you do
something like that?”

“Cuz I fucking hate the guy, if
it wasn’t obvious enough. I want
him to
suffer
big time.”

Well, damn, just when you think you
know someone. I always
thought she
was a good Christian girl

Also, if I remember correctly,
she was working in a family business…

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At the point where nothing in this world brings or even hints to excitement anymore

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the third can of beer
empties

and she throws it
away

leans back into the
chair
and breathes a few times

reaches down between
her legs and starts
rubbing

and nothing

She’s finally there. At the point
where nothing in this
world brings or even
hints to excitement anymore

Where does
one go from that point?

What are the options?

It’s been four
days and nights already
and she’s still
thinking

hasn’t moved
from that chair once

Well, she’s definitely not
the worst muse
I’ve dealt with

just one of
them

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